Since when are people NOT depressed on the holidays. Isn't this the time of year when suicide is high? That people drink themselves into stupors and drug themselves so they don't have to FEEL what I'm feeling?
Michael (my fiance') makes me want to bang my head against the wall. OH how I wish I could just bust him in the head and get away with it. Without any fault on my side? That would be amazing.
SO.. no Christmas for me this year. No love any day of the year. No heart no feelings nothing. I'm losing it because I can't survive only on my son's good graces EVERYNOW AND THEN.
Maybe I shouldnt be blogging to an empty computer and an empty blog. Hrmph.
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